Three years ago today

Three years ago today, I woke up with a banging headache to accompany my raging hangover. After the party I had thrown the night before I wasn’t at all surprised, but the biggest shock was yet to come. As I was cleaning up I got a peculiar phone call from my mother. She said she was dropping in on me – from three hours away; definitely out of the ordinary. After buying myself a few minutes, I rushed around throwing away cans, bottles, and lots of cigarette butts (it’s a nasty habit that I don’t partake in or condone but yet they were strewn around my patio anyways).

When I answered the door she seemed quite normal but when she sat down her face morphed into something I had never seen. I didn’t believe her and swore she was lying. The last time I saw him was in a hospital bed without a knee in his leg – it was the most coherent conversation I had had with him in fifteen years. That had been about a year before I saw my life shatter and fall before my eyes. Being the workaholic that I am, I went to work that day and numbly made arrangements for my absence to take care of all my business.

Three years later and I have grown so much and really learned what it means to have his blood running through my veins. In his memory I bought two yellow balloons and wrote a little note to him with my sharpie. Sending them up to heaven, I felt the weight on my shoulders attached to the ends of the string; watching it all float away was so calming. IMG_0175.JPG




Meditation is a thing, get with it.

I realize that there are people in the world who think meditation is only for monks and old men. I’m here today to tell you that I am a twenty-four year old woman in America who loves to meditate. The feeling that comes over me when I finish my meditation is like none other. I feel as if I can take on the world and all will be well. It is important to learn to be still with yourself, nature, and the vibrations of the world. Open up your mind and you will open up your world, there is so much out there to discover.

When I first started meditating I was really self-conscious about how I looked or sounded during that fifteen minutes to an hour. Looking back, I can’t help but chuckle. There was never anyone around and even if they were, it is an irrelevant matter. There was a time where I would get so angry with myself when my mind would wander to other things when I told it to be still.  I don’t mind sacrificing a little humility to reach clarity of mind and an appreciation for the life I am fortunate enough to live.


So I’ve learned to push my belly out when I breathe, and I’m not concerned with whether I look fat. I hum a little and make bizarre sounds. I’m not afraid to let my mind wander, I’ve learned that it is a natural part of the meditation process. The trick is to simply return my focus on my intended subject and keep on trucking (much like many things in life). I’m positive that if I possess the courage to practice meditation consistently, I will find the effects seeping into all areas of my life.

This friday there is a Global Peace Meditation at Noon EST (see this CONVERTER for your time zone), people all around the world will be simultaneously meditating for peace. What a beautiful, idyllic concept it is to create peace by mind power. It may be cheesy and have tree hugger plastered all over it, but I dig it. I’m trying to get a group of people to meet up in a local park and create a meditation circle to symbolize to peace and unity that we are striving for all around our globe.

Recently, I have reintroduced meditation into my daily routine and I am challenging myself to 100 days of meditation to see if I can tap into my third eye and get back in touch with my path in life. Does anyone want to be my accountability partner and join me in the challenge? It is always nice to know you aren’t the only human left in the world. We all make our slip ups but it is important to continue learning from them and to have a strong base to encourage you and support your endeavor.

Do you meditate? How often? How does it make you feel? What are the benefits that you find? Will you be participating in Friday’s Festivities?

For more myths about meditation check out this post by Bhanu Narasimhan.

xxx Sam